Born in a Machine

“What becomes of the broken hearted who had love that’s now departed? I know I’ve got to find some kind of peace of mind….

— Jimmy Ruffin

For Those Unawares….

People don’t just kill themselves because they’re alone, depressed, bullied, chemically deficit, over-medicated, under-emotionally-nourished, or because their lovers leave them.

Some people are born, take it all in, think, “Oh my GOD, what the fuck is going on? How does this make any sense?”, and just can’t fucking take it.

For everyone who wants money, multiple cars, jewelry, watches American Idol religiously, or thought that LOST was the “BEST.SHOW.EVAR”:

YOU NEVER CATCH THE DRAGON.

STOP BEING A FUCKING IDIOT.

PEOPLE ARE DYING BECAUSE OF YOU.

PEOPLE ARE DYING BECAUSE YOU JUST SIT.

Sorry. I know everything coming out of my fingertips/mind has been obtusely pissed for the past… while. It has nothing to do with the couple of lovely followers I’m lucky to have. LOVEYOUGUYS. Basically what it came to is, I’ve been half-living in my head-dome-space for years, scared  because of what I had been told/read/saw/etc. When I popped out of school, joined the real world, and actually got the lay of the land without thinking I was a “student” or “young’n”, I wanted to scream at the top of my fucking lungs and destroy everything. When they say “game”, they literally mean a FUCKING GAME. Social reality is to earthly reality as Monopoly is to applied economics. 

It crushed me to find: there is no “bad ass”, there is no “hero”, there is no “justice”, there is no “beauty” (except nature [raw people in rags included]/life), there is no “soul mate”, there is no “lovely singing voice”. There is NOTHING. Nothing matters. 

BUT THAT’S THE PROBLEM.

Everything should matter. Not to you, not to me, not to Zeus, but to Life. Everything should matter, and no time should be spent on anything that doesn’t.
Everything should matter, because I’m only going to live once, and the only thing I’ve ever wanted is to just be happy. JUST. TO BE. Happy.

But the problem is, things that don’t make sense bother me to no end. Things should make sense. 
Things, 100%, do not add up in the world we live in.

It’s weird to me that so many people are so cool with it, especially since we’re seeing people finally stand up for themselves and their unhappiness in North Africa. There’s only one message, as far as I’m concerned, that people should be getting from being alive this very day, and being alive tomorrow:

YOU CAN BE HAPPY.
EVERYONE CAN BE HAPPY.
YOU CAN CHANGE THE WORLD.
I WILL HELP YOU, AND SO WILL MY NEIGHBORS. 

“I fully endorse an open-source society.

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